Keeping Faith

Merry Christmas, and belly picture

2009-12-25T14:22:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to write a quick post. I want to wish you all a very Merry Christmas!!! I hope that you have all enjoyed(and are still enjoying) your time with your friends and family. What an amazing holiday to celebrate, the birth of our Saviour, Jesus Christ!!

I have uploaded a recent picture of my growing belly, this was taken last night on Christmas Eve. I think we so easily forgot what this season is really all about. So we started talking about this last night and how would we like to bring up our Children. We decided to leave Christmas day for remember the birth of Jesus Christ and open our gifts on Christmas Eve. Let me tell you, it was sssoo relaxing on Christmas morning!! We had time to read the bible and reflect on the real reason of this season.. It was great!!! Im hoping we can continue to do this every year.

Again Merry Christmas!

Some pictures

2009-12-07T11:46:00.000-08:00

Here are some pictures that I have been meaning to put up! Hope you enjoy.

P.S. Its snowing out and its beautiful!! Perfect day to stay in and watch the snow fall

2nd trimester here I come!

2009-12-03T07:07:00.000-08:00

YAH!!! Im in 2nd trimester!!! How awesome is that?!?! I cant believe I am 1/3 of the way there. I have a picture I took on Sunday but DH has the camera with him so I will have to upload it later tonight.
Overall I am still feeling very sick, Im *hoping* and praying that this will pass very soon. I am going shopping in Buffalo this weekend to get some good baby deals(the states seem to be sssoo much cheeper for baby stuff even with the exchange!) and I would like it if I could enjoy a couple meals without the toilet bowl stealing them right after! I havent put on any weight, actually I have lost a few pounds BUT the bump is there!! I noticed last week that it had 'popped'! I was bloated before but now you can see a little bump.
I am going to keep this short as I have a lot of cleaning to do and considering that my breakfast is staying down I have no excuses lol
hugs!

12 weeks and 2 days, plus ultra sound

2009-11-27T06:32:00.001-08:00

Good Morning!
I first just want to say thank-you for all the comments on my last post. The situation with my SIL-C, has not improved. We had a birthday party for DH last week for family and didnt invite her. However my FIL brought in a card from her with a nasty letter. The whole letter was not about what she did, not about the fact that she was sorry, she didnt ask for our forgiveness, BUT she did preach to us about forgiveness and how we are very mean ppl for not forgiving and forgetting all these years of hurt. At this point we dont know what will happen at Christmas. I honestly dont want to be around her. I dont trust her at all. I know that we will forgive her, however I dont know if we can ever trust her again.

On a much happier note:-) I am 12 weeks and 2 days already!! Can you believe it!!!Its amazing how fast this is going by. I honestly thought it would just drag on, however Im sure once its gets closer to June 9th the days will feel a LOT longer. Im still feeling the all day 'morning' sickness. The other day I went to the spa for the first time with my close friend. Please keep in mind through the next little bit that this is a VERT upscale spa:-) I went in and had a rain massage that was safe for the baby. It was AMAZING!!! Wow I could easily go and have one every day. However when it was done I must have stood up too quickly cause I actually fainted. It was only for a second but I got up and left the room and there were ladies right there helping me. I was so embarassed:-( I had to sit with my head between my legs for awhile. Than they brought me ice water and cold clothes, they were all so nice. Just when I started to feel better Steen Bean decided he didnt like the muffin I ate earlier and off to the bathroom I ran. :-( After that I was feeling great and was ready for my manicure. I sat down and away we went. She was just starting to put stuff on my nails when Steen bean thought there must have been a little bit of muffin left, so off I ran again. Honestly this must be a boy cause I cannot imagine any girl ruining another girls spa day!!! After that I was finally able to enjoy my remaing spa day experience:-) Im really hoping and praying that this wont last much longer! So please pray a little prayer for me too please:-) I know its all a good sign that everything is great with baby, but please God at a spa???

Yesterday we had our second ultra sound. Wow its crazy how much Steen Bean has changed!!! He/she was even waving to us!! It truly was amazing!! The heart rate was still on the higher side at 169. The staff all said for sure it was a girl, however Im still leaning on the boy side. ;-). I will have to post some pics of both ultrasounds on the next post as well as my starting bump. Yep there is something there. Before I could tell it was just bloat but yesterday it was starting to feel a hard and not as bloaty;-) I got weighed as well yesterday and Im still losing weight which I expected. But I am confident that this wont last and I will soon be able to eat normal once again:-)

Since most of you on here are from the States, I want to wish each and everyone one of you a Happy Thanksgiving!!! I am so thankful for all of you. Your truly are amazing people and Im so fortunate to 'know' you all.
God bless!

Thoughts, Prayers, and Suggestions needed...

2009-11-14T09:52:00.000-08:00

As you may have known from the past that DH and I have had problems with his sister C(I will just call her C for now) for the last 4 years. After a 2 year long and hard struggle to conceive we were overjoyed to find out that our miracle had finally happened, however with the excitement came a bit of nervousness. We were cautiously excited and honestly just wanted to keep this little miracle to ourselves for as long as possible. Even with 2nd tri just around the corner we still were not ready to let everyone know. To be honest we were really enjoying just sharing this with a few family, very few close friends, and of course you guys on here. On wed we found out that C had told her best friend who must have told her parents, whose parents than went around announcing it at church. When we had told C and rest of inlaws we had asked them and made them promise to not tell anyone and we specifically asked C to promise that she wouldnt tell her 20 best friends, and she promised us in front of teh whole family. She now is ticked off at us for being upset at her. She has told us that of course she would tell her best friend, because she knew we personally werent going to announce it to her.
I am so upset. DH and I were not and are not ready to let everyone know. And she could care less. She has told us over and over again that she is not sorry and she would do it again if she could. And you know what, it wouldnt be such a big deal except she has done this type of stuff to us for the past 4 years. She has accused me of going after Dh for his money, wouldnt take any part in our wedding, told me that I ruin all her holidays, said that all we do is take and take from the FIL(which is NOT true, she is living Rent free in one of his houses, but yet she can afford a 700 dollar camera?????), has accused me of belittling my DH, and much more. I have prayed and prayed and talked to DH so much. We have forgiven her in the past, however its so hard to forget when the pain is still there when the next event happens.
We have told her that its not healthy this way and that I cant have this stress, especially while pregnant and that if things are not resolved by the time the baby comes that we will not expose the baby to this type of enviroment. She has told me I have no right and that this is her niece/nephew and we can not keep him/her from her.
Im so lost and confused by all of this. I know the right thing to do is forgive, but honestly what is the point??? And I know that forgiving does not earse the pain and the memory. Especially when its a common occurance. So what is our option??? She wont acknowledge that this was wrong and hurtful to us, and I know she could care less about me. So what do we do?? If we chose to seperate ourselves from her we are spliting up the family and she will blame that on us so than we look like the bad ppl. But I know we cant continue to live on like this. I honestly was shaking and crying all day wed and thursday, I just couldnt understand this at all. We have tried to get FIL involved but he wants nothing to do with it, he doesnt think of his 25 year old daughter as doing anything wrong. And he stated that its our word against hers(um we have a ton of emails with all of this stuff !) And we have to be careful because for the farm DH has to have somewhat of an relationship with his dad.
If you have any suggestions, thoughts or anything can you please offer them?? Even if its just a prayer for us and for the baby that would be much appreciated.
Thank you

10 weeks!

2009-11-11T08:07:00.000-08:00

10 weeks already!! Im sorry about last week when I said I was almost 8 weeks, I must have had a little baby brain:-S. Double digits feel great!!! Things are going well, I am feeling great! I am not as tired anymore, however still have the m/s and food aversions. I had wanted pizza hut pizza for ssssoooo long. So last saturday we went with another couple and it was delish!!! Tasted sssoo good that Steen Bean decided he/she didnt like it. I didnt made it just in time to the washroom at the restuarant!! :-S. So no pizza for me for a long time. I find anything greesy makes me sick. Which is good I guess, I LOVE(or Steen bean loves)fruits and veggies and anything cold. Water galore with about 5 ice cubes in each glass, and I was never really a water drinker before.

I will post a pic next post, but there is def something growing in there! I know the baby is still pretty love but everything is shifting around and combine that with the bloat the bump has started!

How far along? 10 weeks 0 days

Total weight gain/loss I think maybe a pound? Not much

Sleep? Getting better! I can stay up past 8:30! Last night I was up till 10:30!! Whooo hoo!! Still need a nap though through the day if possible

Best moment this week? Just really feeling great, I know that may not seem that great. But yesterday I actually cleaned, and cleaned more than one room!!! Thats a huge milestone!

Food cravings? anything cold, and lots of fruit. Cant get enough of it

Have you bought any baby stuff? Yep! I didnt intend on buying in first tri but I have came across some really good deals. I have a coming home outfit for baby, the stroller, and last week got a used angel care monitor for $60! Great deal!

What I miss? Nothing really! Although there are some nights there a nice glass of wine would be nice:-) Im thinking of getting some sparkling juice for those nights.

Weekly wisdom? Enjoy every day!! It honestly is such a blessing, and when you have a great feeling day take advantage of it. Whether it be cleaning, cooking or going out for some dessert with a friend or hubby. But dont pass up those days!

God bless each and every one of you!

UPDATE Almost 8 weeks and first big baby purchase!

2009-11-03T06:51:00.000-08:00

Baby Brain Im 9 weeks not 8 weeks!!!! :-)

Good Morning!! I hope everyone is enjoying their week! My week so far as been great! Last week I was sick with a cold and bad m/s all through the week and weekend, so Im glad to be feeling much better this week. Since Sunday I have been feeling awesome! No morning sickness, not as tired and get this: I have actually been staying up PAST 9pm!!! Thats really great since staying up to 9 the past 5 weeks has been a struggle! Im knocking on a lot of wood that the m/s is a thing in the past, so please keep your fingers crossed for me:-)

We made our first big baby purchase:-) I have always loved peg perego. I have wanted one since starting TTC(which was two years ago). When we found out we were pregnant I started really looking into which one was best for us, and we finally decided on the peg skate. However the price was a little HIGH:-S. Over 800(and thats just the stroller!) plus taxes. So I started looking on kijiji and found a new one(barely used, in excellent conidition) for only $500. So we got it!!!! and LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!! Im so happy with it! Its been fun playing around with. It can convert to a bassinet, stroller, switch so the baby is facing you or facing forward, and its the green bubble pattern that I love.

We also have some other exciting news.....we are moving!!!! This has been a huge answer to my prayers. We are finally moving onto the home farm in early December!! We are very excited and feel very blessed right now. Its going to be a bit of challenge as I wont be able to do too much(paining and picking up and moving boxes, or really moving anything). BUT I did score at the grocery store and got a bunch of boxes so I was able to pack up a closet and spare room stuff yesterday. Anyone have any suggestions for being pregnant and moving?? I know that they say most pain is safe but I just dont want to risk it, so I am going to buy a mask so I can at least do other things while ppl are painting(just in another room). I figured if I have a few fold up talbes in teh kitchen so ppl can put boxes on them that would help than I dont need to keep bending down all the time, and wont be lifting the boxes either So any tips or suggestions would be great:-)

Other than that, there is not much new. I hope all is well with you guys!

Love and hugs

Got to see our little bean!!!

2009-10-28T06:48:00.000-07:00

So yesterday was our first Ultra sounds, and it was AMAZING!!!! Seeing that little bean inside of me and hearing his/her strong heartbeat was truly worth the wait. I was obviously very nervous going in. Would there be a hearbeat? Would there be anything? And as soon as she said there is the baby, the tears starting flowing. I was just so overjoyed, and felt so blessed. What a a wonderful miracle!
The heartbeat was 167, and the baby was measuring at 8 weeks and 3 days instead of 7 weeks 6 days. However my due date will stay the same.
The past few weeks I have been having some M/S on and off. That is until Monday, it was here the whole day. I tried everything and nothing would stay down. So my dr is putting me dialactin(sp?) to help. Im hoping it does! Other than that I have been still feeling very tired, and now have a cold coming on. So I hope the cold can stay away!!
I also just wanted to say that I think of all of you and pray for you!!
God bless

I think I have the start of M/S...:-(

2009-10-12T06:54:00.000-07:00

Last week we were in Kentucky and while we were leaving our house DH came up and hugged me and right away the baby couldnt stand the smell of his cologne and I made it to the washroom just in time. I didnt think much about it...however I have been wanting movie theater popcorn but couldnt stand the thought of sitting through a whole move so I just made some at home last night. I was fine eating it, but as soon as I set the bowl down I didnt feel well. Needless to say the popcorn didnt last too long and I WILL not be eating popcorn for a VERY long time. I was hoping when I woke up this morning all would be well. Got up made myself a tea(decaf) and DH came back from the barn and decided to make me breakfast, bacon and eggs. Sounds good right?? Nope as soon as I finished eating them I started to feel nauseaous :-(
Oh well I guess this is just a good sign that the baby is growing right??
Oh and I had an awful mightmare last night...I dreamt I had a m/c :-(
I dont know how many Canadians I have on my blog, but if I do I just wanted to wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving!!!
Yesterday we had thanksgiving with ILs(today it will be with my parents). I was a little nervous about telling the ILs. Mainly because of our past history. So DH was supposed to announce it before we started eating, however dessert was served and he still hadnt announced anything. So my FIL had asked everyone for a Christmas list, so I got a piece of paper and wrote on it "Anything for the baby" and gave it to him. He read it and put it back in his pocked and than said congratulations. It was a really great moment. When we closed in prayer he prayed a prayer of thanks for DH and I, BUT also prayed for all the other couples out there who are still not blessed with their miracle. That really hit me. I am so excited and blessed, but I dont want ppl to forget our journey to get here. Infertility is such a hard, long and stressful journey and that is a HUGE part of DH and I. Im scared that with this pregnancy ppl will forget about our journey, however when my FIL prayed it meant so much to me.
Anyways this post is getting long...
I hope you all had a great weekend!!
Thanks again for your continued support and prayers

5 weeks :-)

2009-10-08T16:04:00.000-07:00

I cant believe I am already 5 weeks!!! I hope the rest of the pregnancy goes by this fast so I can meet our little miracle. I am unable to load any pics up for some reason so the belly/bloated pic will have to wait. Actually the picture was taken at 4 weeks, and the bloating as only gotten worse! We went on a dairy convention this past week and I swear by the afternoon it looked like I was 4 months pregnant. I will be happy when the news is out and I wont have to try and hide my belly from friends/family.

How far along: 5w 2 day
Total weight gain/loss: still have to weigh myself, but I am planning on doing some WII Fit tomorrow so it will weigh me
First symptom: Boobs were VERY sore, and I was extremly tired
Who was the first person, other than DH, that you told: My best friend
Sleep: I cant seem to get enough sleep. I would normally go to bed at 11 or so, and now I could go to bed at 8
Best moment this week: First U/S appt scheduled for Oct 27
Movement: Nope
Food cravings: Apple cidar
Will you find out the sex: Nope, I would like to keep it a surprise
What I miss: Nothing, I am just so excited to be pregnant and creating this little life inside of me
What I am looking forward to: Oct 27, for my first U/S and thanksgiving this weekend when we tell our ILs(wish us luck! lol)
Weekly Wisdom: Enjoy every moment!

Im still pregnant :-)

2009-10-05T09:30:00.001-07:00

Yep! I still have a little baby growing inside of me. I still find it very surreal that I am in fact pregnant. It truly is a blessing from God.
My b/w came back on thursday at 89.9 so it more than doubled since Tuesday so now my first U/S is scheduled for Oct 27, its feels really far away so Im hoping it will go by very fast lol.
I have been feeling really good. I still have very sore breats that seem to be growing like crazy, a little(although I am sure DH will say VERY) emotional at times, VERY VERY tired, and apparently the baby does not like my hubbys cologne :-(. But I honeslty love all the symptoms I have, it gives me the reassurance that everythign is going well and that baby is still growing.
According to my LMP the baby is does June 9th, however I will give you a more updated date after the U/S.
Thank you so much for all your kind words, thoughts and prayers. It really means a lot to me.

Thanks and God bless!

Im pregnant!!!!!

2009-09-30T06:13:00.000-07:00

Yep its true!!! I honestly cannot believe that I am writing this right now...I will start from a few days ago...
This past two weeks something was just off. I was VERY forgetful(I thought I had my car stolen and called the cops meanwhile I just parked somewhere else!!), food and drinks have tasted off, my boobs have been VERY sore, and I have been VERY tired!. So on Monday I went into town and thought I would get a pregnancy test. My period was due Tuesday but I had no spotting(and I always spot before AF). So I came home took the test and only one line came up. I started crying and reread the directions got up washed my hands and looked back down and there were two lines!!!!! I couldnt believe my eyes. I have dreamed so many times of seeing those precious two lines and there they were right in front of my eyes. Not one but two amazing lines. I quickly grabbed my keys and drove over to the farm to tell DH. I couldnt even talk cause I was crying so hard when I pulled up, all I could do was show him the test. He grabbed me and hugged me and we both cried. Its our time now, we are finally going to be parents!!!!
Can you believe it?? Im going to be a mommy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I honestly believe that this was all part of Gods plan for us. We had taken a break from treatments and we were supposed to start again this month but that will NOT be happening now :-).
Oh my goodness I am so overjoyed and feel so blessed!!!
We got my first betta levels back yesterday and it was 36.1, I thought it sounded really low but when I googled , it was normal. They REs office just said that it need to double by tomorrow. So fingers crossed and lots of prayers to God that this little bean will stay put and grow.
Thank you so so so much for all your support and encouragement and most of all prayers. I know I couldnt have made it this far without you all.
God bless!!

RE Appointment today

2009-09-09T16:53:00.000-07:00

Today we had our RE appointment about what our next step is. He went over everything an dsaid that although everything looks great we are still not pregnant. Therefore we can either continue on for another 3 rounds of IUI with clomid/Femara along with injectables, OR move onto IVF. We decided to stick with the IUI for another few rounds and see what happens. Im really holding out faith in God that this is the right path for us, and if not I know he will guide us down the right path.
Recently I have been struggling with a lot. Some issues with my inlaws, some struggling with my faith in Gods plan for me, and just a lot of stress on our marriage because of al lof this. An amazing friend of mine out of the blue sent me this verse...I thought I would close with this. God always has a way of reminding us how to stay focased.
James 1:2-4
Trials and Temptations
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

RE appointment is next week

2009-09-01T05:36:00.000-07:00

Good Morning Everyone!
Wow this week is starting off to be a beautiful week!!! Perfect summer weather :-)
I feel sometimes I dont have anything to write in this blog because our IF news is pretty much old news. So I havent been updating that often. Thats not saying that I dont think of you often, cause I do! I come back daily and check everyones updates, and it really is amazing seeing how God is working in each and everyone of our lives.
Next week on the 9th we have our meeting with our RE. Im really not sure what to expect or ask so Im hoping you can help? We have had 3 failed IUIs and 5 or 6 cycles on clomid. Which I know isnt much but EVERYTHING is really good. DHs sperm is above normal, and I have Oed everytime and have had two follicles each time with the IUIs. So is it worth it to do another IUI? They are not going to find anything with IUIs right? I remember being told that the only way to find out if there is something further going on is by IVF...not sure if thats true or not. Also is it the best solution to move onto IVF if there is no clear problem as to why we are not pregnant...
Anyways any thoughts on this would be much appreciated :-)
God bless

Some exciting news :-)

2009-08-16T06:25:00.000-07:00

No its nothing to do with IF. We are still trying however no pressure. Its been really great the past few weeks. It feels like we are the couple before IF crashed into our lives.

Heres for the exciting news...

I have had a huge passion for photography for years now. And the past few years have really started getting into it. My friend who is a local photography has given me the opportunity to assist in the weddings she has booked. So I did one before she had her baby, I have two in October, and than I get to do her sisters wedding next August!!! I am so blessed to have Jess in my life and has a montor. She has a great style to her work, and its great learning from her.

Sssooo I decided that I went to get 'my feet wet"with photography on my own. So I emailed a few friends and offerend them my services for an hour for only $40 and than they get all edited photos on a CD. This way I get some experience on my own(other than my sister lol) but its also gives my friends some great pics!

Here are a couple from my sisters session the other day: BUT if you want to see my favourite picture check on my blog : http://mymomentintime.wordpress.com/

My 100th Post!

2009-08-13T07:19:00.000-07:00

I cant believe this is my 100th post...
I was looking through my posts last night and its amazing how far DH and I have come. There have been some really tough times, and some really great times, and we are still together stronger than ever. I HATE IF, I really do. However I know that because of everything we have been through we are stronger and nothing will tear us apart.
We have our next RE appointment in September. I really dont know what they will say. Id imagine that we will try another couple rounds of IUI with different meds and than not sure?? Will they suggest IVF for unexplained IF?
Oh and just wanted to leave the link for my new blog...check it out if you have time:-)
http://mymomentintime.wordpress.com/

“Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”
1 Thessalonians 5:16

New blog :-)

2009-08-12T10:38:00.000-07:00

Hi Everyone!!!
Sorry for not updating much lately, but honestly I dont have much to update! We are just enjoying this summer and obviously not much is new in TTC news.
Photography has always been a BIG passion of mine. And lately I have been really getting into it. I LOVE being behind the camera capturing those special moments, or just playing around in our back yard or on the farm. So I thought I would try and journal some of these pictures for the next 365 days. So for each day I will upload a picture of what is happening that day....Here is the link http://mymomentintime.wordpress.com/
I am still going to keep this blog. I find this one really has helped with everything the past two years. I couldnt have gotten through some of these moments with you girls. However I need more than just IF and I need to start focasing on my life and what makes me happy. So the other blog will be a way for me to vent those feelings...I hope you enjoy!!
God bless each and everyone of you!

Back from vacation!

2009-08-01T05:53:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone!
I hope your all enjoying your summer. Its been a really beautiful week here.
DH and I just came back from a mini vacation, that was much needed. We were planning on going down to the states and meeting up with fellow blogger Jeannie and her two twin boys, however we were not able to get off the farm for that long, so up north we went!
It was GREAT!!! We did a lot of reading, canoeing, hiking, swimming, oh and a LOT of eating and laying around :-) Couldnt have asked for a better trip :-)

On TTC news this cycle is one huge headache! I am not charting or taking my temp so I have no idea what is going on with my body. However on CD14 I started spotting, and that continued for 3 days than stopped on our vacation. So obviously I was feeling a little optimistic when it stopped...however 2 days after that it started again but more watery and more red, and here I am today still spotting and not expecting my period for another week. I swear just when I am started to relax and not worry about all this ttc stuff this happens! Its really frustrating and Im just getting tired of disappointment after disappointment. More and more of my friends are either pregnant or have already had one or two children...and more and more of the blogs I follow are already pregnant or have had a baby(or two!). I am so happy for each and every one of my friends and you guys, but honestly when is it my turn???!!! What am I not doing right? Or what I am forgetting?? I really do not want to head back to the REs office next month and move back to IUIs, Im just so drained for all of this

Sorry for the vent..!
God bless each and every one of you!
hugs

My first honest award!

2009-07-09T06:07:00.000-07:00

My fellow "blogger" friend Lauren gave me my first blogger award! Please check out her blog here: http://laurenalexis1.blogspot.com/ She is a Christian and as inspired me in so many ways, So thank you Lauren!

I am supposed to share 10 honest things about myself and then nominate 7 other people for the award (then comment on their blog to tell them about it, of course!)

1) I grew up in foster care since I was 7 years old, and consider my foster parents my "parents". I do however know my birth parents. With my birth family and foster family I have 9 brothers and sisters

2) I am scared of human germs. Although it was much worse years ago, I still find it difficult to do certain things. I hate opening doors, touching money, I wont use straws that dont have a plastic cover on them, I really dont like public washrooms, and I always have my purell on me at all times.

3) I worry about everything. I have always been this way, and I know it drives hubby up the wall sometimes ;-)

4) I can be very indecisve at times. And therefore I find it very difficult to make up my mind, and am always second guessing myself.

5) I love God and wish I was a better Christian\

6) I really really like i know this is not that huge of a 'honesty' remark, but its true! I remember the first day I got it I couldnt stand the keyboard on it, and now I love it!

7) I love photography and am very inspired by my close friend who is a photographer and hope one day to follow in her footsteps.

8) I was very shy growing up. It wasnt until highschool that I started to open up a bit. I think this is part of why I love being behind a camera. I can still be part of whats going on, however I am not the one everyone is looking at

9) I got to breed a cow for the first time yesterday!! It was a little gross but still pretty awesome too

10) I wish that I could sometimes open up to my friends IRL as much as I open up to you guys on my blog...

And here are the 7 blogs that inspire, encourage, motivate, or entertain me (or all of the mentioned)...

Shannon: She was one of my first blogger/knot friends. Her faith in God and her struggle to get conceive is a touching journey. If you havent read her blog yet please venture over! She is expecting twins in December...http://shannonlea-baby.blogspot.com/

Jeannie: She just had twin boys a few weeks ago. I too 'met' her through the knot/blogging and have become great friends. She is such a sweetheart, and I am so thankful that God has brought her into my life....here is her blog: http://alittlebrownie.blogspot.com/

Dianne: I also met through blogging...She has also struggled to conceive and as recently found out she is expecting and due in March...Please check out her blog and congratulate her :-) http://littleonetocome.blogspot.com/

Journey to A "Wondraful" Baby : After trying to conceive her and her hubby have decided to adopt! This has been awesome reading about her journey through IF and now adoption. Here is her blog : http://wondrafulbaby.blogspot.com/

Alicea (mnbride1013) is also expecting her first child(Its a boy!!) after a journey of IF. With only 30 days to go, the countdown is on! Here is her blog: http://mnbride1013.blogspot.com/

3 Blessings: I have just recently 'met' her. Her strong faith in God and her 3 beautiful children is truly a blessing from God. Please check out her blog at : http://filledwithpraise.blogspot.com/

Jessica: Is like me, still trying to concieve our first child. Please read her blog about her journey through IF:http://dreamsofababy.blogspot.com/

Thanks again Lauren for this award!! :-)

Great week!!!

2009-07-06T17:26:00.000-07:00

Our God is great isnt he?!?! Do you just sometimes have those weeks where you are so thankful to God for all he has given you and all that he provides? That was one of those weeks.
We started off with our Anniversary, which was AWESOME!!!! We went to a village for a day to do some shopping and just walk around. Afterwards we went to a friends house who was actually married the same day as us, and we had a Thai chef come in and teach us and made thai food. It was DELICIOUS!!!! I have never had thai food, but for my first time I just loved it. It was really a great night with friends and really great food.
Friday night hubby and I were in a wedding for our close friends. It was a really beautiful wedding. I have always loved weddings, however sometimes I find them hard at the same time. I see more and more couples moving into new stages of their lives, while it may be engagement, marriage, or children. It hurts in a way to see more and more ppl moving into these stages, and sometimes I feel we are 'stuck' in this one stage. ...
Saturday I had my old college roommate come down for the weekend. I havent seen her in 5 plus years, and actually havent even talked to her! It was a really great weekend.
Im praying for you all! God bless
Shannon

Our 2nd Anniversary!

2009-06-29T09:13:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is our 2nd wedding Anniversary. I honestly cannot believe we have been married two years already. With everything we have been through in the past two years there is no doubt in my mind that I have the best husband. I know I couldnt go through this journey without him beside me.

Happy Anniversary hun!

I love you!

There was a tornado yesterday!

2009-06-26T06:29:00.000-07:00

This house was split in two!! God was watching over this family. But please pray for them.

Good Morning!

Yesterday we got warnings that we were going to get severe thunderstorms and possiblity of hail. The weather network did mention tornados, but obviously you never think that will happen to you.

When the rain started coming I was getting excited. I LOVE thunderstorms. I have always been a huge fan of them. I remember growing up that my mom used always say it was God playing bowling in heaven:-) I saw how dark the clouds were, but when the rain passed I figured that the storm must not have been as big as they thought it was going to be...until I logged onto facebook and saw all the status updates about the tornado.

The house that was split in two is just a few roads over from us. Thankfully there was no one in the house at the time. God was obviously watching out for them.

On other news we are somewhere midcycle. Im not really sure what day in the cycle I am at. One of my fellow bloggers posted a very beautiful post about her journey through IF and her faith with God. She has really inspired me to become closer to God and continue to hand this over to God. This cycle has been very different from previous cycles. We are focusing more on us and on our relationship with God. It feels really great and free.

WFW

2009-06-24T06:31:00.000-07:00

Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Psalm 73:23-26

Where has this week gone??

2009-06-21T14:58:00.000-07:00

Good Afternoon!
The past week and a bit have been super busy; which has been great. I obviously moved onto another cycle. However this cycle we are not taking any meds and no IUI. Its been a huge relief not having to plan everything around my fertility appointments. I know that we have only had 3 IUIs, however that in itself has been physically and emotionally draining.
Last week my close friend had her second baby, and I had the honour of looking after her 14 month daughter. Regardless of my struggle to concieve, the birth of a baby is such a miraculous event. I just cant get over it, and Im getting teary eyed as I type this. Im just amazed at Gods work! Isnt he awesome?!
This weekend as been really busy. My sister in law is over from out west for the past week and than on friday night I hosted a bachelorette party for another good friend of mine at my house. We had a great time drinking and just being girls;-).
We have been really working hard at paying off our credit cards and paying any other bills we may have. We got our taxes back and we both got a good amount back so we put most on the credit card and paid off all our other debt and than we used the last little bit and went out and got a laptop!!!! I have wanted one for so long so last night we went out and got a HP Pavilion, and I LOVE LOVE LOVE it!! As Im typing this I am sitting with my feet up watching a movie;-)

I want to thank you all for your support, especially the past little bit. I really dont know what Gods plan is for me. But I intend to enjoy this journey as much as possible. GOD IS GREAT!

Word Filled Wednesday and 12 DPIUI

2009-06-10T07:42:00.000-07:00

I was drawn to this verse today and I thought I would share...

Psalms 73:28

"But it is good for me to draw near to God. I have put my trust in the Lord God that I may declare all thy works."

On others news I am currently 12 DPIUI and not holding out too much hope. I started spotting yesterday. Which is usually a sure sign AF is on her way. Im just looking forward to some good news coming my way. I WANT a baby, I WANT to be a mother! And I WILL become a mother. These tears, frustrations and broken heart will be worth it one day.